Also maybe porn if I want.
My brother is blasting Shakira and asking me “What was that Justin Timberlake song I used to listen to?”… Please no…
I wish I was less fucking depressing. I wish my life was better so I could tell my friends how my day was without ruining their fucking day. I feel like I’m driving people away by being so sad all the time, and that just makes me sadder. I want to run away from everything but I’m scared that no matter where I go will be poisoned by my negativity, and any beauty I find will be destroyed by my ugliness.
Whenever I’m on campus I think to myself “Haha nobody knows I’m really just a baby with a beard”
I’ve been there
There is no bridge
Agog to the gap
Please rape my face
Maybe then I’ll manage not to throw up
Cause this purge is sacred
And desecration may be my only hope